past 4 weeks

i finally decided to be regular in writing blogs.. this is because of things that happed in past 4 weeks...i don't know how these 4 weeks would affect my future..but things have changed..i never got so much of time to think about every thing..being it myself, nature, people, friends, girls ;), science..i almost paid my attention to everything under sun..but got to learn very less..as most of the time i was confused..realities shaked me..and vituality pleased..
pure was dull...artificial was interesting...
honesty was tension.. fack..was comfort..
i choose comfort over tension...ha ha.. atleast for sometime..

when sometimes you are lost

While climbing up on a hill, where do we keep our sight?, or what is that we target for?
Atleast I look at the hill top..and tell my self that is the place,  i should reach there, but what happens as  u reach there. What after reaching to that target.
We get feeling of accomplishment. But at the same moment, we have no immediate aim and everything else is so far,

what next....what next.. that immediate moment...we are clue less.. mind is empty.. no next target for sometime... no place to focus on.. Its feeling of being lost, for sometime you will be clue less, what u do next, what should be next target...

and we are tired too. Feel like relaxing a bit and realization comes I can't rest here, this was not my target. 
Finally u may want to come down... and hit your home back.

Then why I wanted to climb ...

sometimes we are so ....

Direction less.

right now i am direction less, but i have not climbed up any hill, now this makes me even more confused.
:)

eye contact

This is question which poped up in my head today sometimes .....
It is based on observation that..when ever eyecontact is established with some cute stranger.. u feel something.. heart beats faster, or some jerk...koi jhatka.. i mean something.....contrary at the same time if similar eye contact is established with know person (or friend) , how so ever beautiful is the person, u never get that feeling ...u never take it on nerve..

Y only with strangers...??

few more thing..when are you comfortable in maintaining that eye contact...
1) when the person is really close...
2) or total stranger....

both are like extreme cases... no middle case... don;t believe me.. check your self .. and look how quickly u look away when u look at the person u partially know...

jina hai to jina hai, jina hai.. ji raha hoo mai...

I was looking for this song since last one week..( like a mad)

This song is from movie "Mr ya miss"

and finally today just now i got it...

i am so happy....[:)]

bas abb age kya pharak pdata hai...

Rahiman dhaga prem ka ..
mat thodo chakaye...
jode se phir ..jude nahi..
jude ghaath pade jaye..

wah wah..


i know above two things look very different.. i mean no connection...thats the beauty.. not everybody can see connections...;)...

My song

My song

Mai zindagi ka sath nibhata chala gaya..( Movie : hum dono)
got to hear it after long time.. i was hunting this song for very long time on raaga.com.. finally today, when i needed it most i got it again, well why this is my favorite song has long story...story is associated with my graduation days..



That one thing, that one most essential thing ....
like ...( i am talking about external medium and not you)
to learn guitar, u need guitar,
to learn swimming, u need water,
to walk, you need ground,
to fly, u need Air,
to breath, u need air,
to rule, u need followers
to improve, you need something which has scope to improve,
to..learn humanity what is that one things u need ??

One life line

well this note is against reservation.. ( i am not against reservation, it should be there but.. not for n number of times and always. It should be for right kind of people)

i guess everybody is aware of "KBC" Kon banega caror pati"
i like one concept there..
that is each contestant is awarded few "life lines" which can be used at any point of the game...
and helps in wining the game...

similarly reservation should be like "life line", one family can use it just ones,
not at every stage

i know the cases where father got job thru reservation, ( he is rich man now and son studied in best school, and had lots of money for coaching center fees)
then son got admission in engg collage..( thru reservation)
then son got admission in Masters program ( thru reservation)
then got JOB (thru reservation)...

Actully real people don't get the chance, resevation should be for people below poverty line
and number of time they use it should be limited, one or two chance per family ..not at the every stage.. like in the eg above..

one can help only ones, other should not get used to of that help and dependent for ever..

Smile

Well i believe smile is cheapest jewelry.... ( good na)

No body can steal it.. ( well in a way one can..!!!)

It is so cheap that everybody can afford it...( infact u already have it, may be locked in locker..all u have to do is to release it from that locker, common show off it to the world and let everybody see how unique and different is your jewelry... best way to do so is to wear it )

and wow it suits to everybody..
it can be wore anywhere anytime..( exceptions apart)
and its glow can be felt on everybody around you...
its presense can be felt on phone, in ur voice....and even in absence of light.

Well no need to purchase it , u already have it, then whats point in storing it.. just use it..
easy to cary.. stable then gold.. is there with you for whole life.. more u use it..

...... more u use it.........?


suggest something for last line..

Silence

Why sometimes silence kills me..
and why sometimes i want nothing but silence..
silence comes with so many things along..(ideas, nirvana..)
its presence is wonderful..
infact all good things comes after silence..
But then why silence is dead..

music kills silence..
but music cannot be enjoyed without silence..

Don't cry just feel

Feel silence..














Feel pain and fatherhood














Feel emptyness















Feel terror





















Feel all alone




















Feel shock

Check this link http://www.msnbc.com/modules/yip05/ss.asp?nStartOn=1
make sure speakers are on.. It wil take you through different moods..Just feel it
don't get carried away.

when everybody else sleeps

working experience when everybody else sleeps is somewhat different, thats the way it works for me, right now its 2:13 am, reaction is going on, i can;t stand and watch it all the time, then what to do? options... read some papers.. well not too enthugiastic about that... Go and have nap.. well there is nothing like nap for me ... it extends to full 5 hour sleep...one option is to talk to somebody who is not sleeping, some friends from abroad..but for how long.. others can not go by ur schedule... then what... ..

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