Worst death

Death can hit you in various form, sometimes accident, sometime aging, sometime some infection or disease, which form is worst of all..and this form is also non obvious..

It is "HUNGER"

Somebody dying from hunger should be last thing that should happen in the world. Why.. because we can always stop it...

Simple stats..

Number of people dying from
Malaria + AIDS + tuberculosis <<<< Number of people dying from hunger..

and

Amount of world money going into reaserch of " malaria" + AIDS + tuberculosis >>>.....
With this much money we can just eliminate this problem.
To cure AIDS they need some medicine which they have not even discoverd... but i know that u can cure hunger with one simple medicine..its very cheap, FOOD...

When somebody die on road because of accident it makes sense, probably there was no way one could have saved that person, or if somebody is suffering from deadly disease or some natural disaster. These situations are not in our hands, not easy ones to handle, but what when somebody die next to your house because of hunger, .... where are we...
This is no natural death, it has simple cure, but still we are so ignorant. We go out of our way to help people who need help at times, it happened when Tsunami and earthquake hit india, but what about this simple problem. It has no major reason, its easy to cure.
So i feel , dying from hunger on road, and when on same road we have malls and shops which have tones of food stored, and that food is seperated from mere "Glass" and "Light", is worst of all ways to departure .

My death story...

One fine morning I woke up, and felt wow this is the day. As I felt no
tiredness and no want to sleep more, I was feeling so refresh, that I
had energy to do everything which was pending since years, which I
left yesterday and wanted to do, at that point I thought it looks like
I can finish long list of pending jobs today, I really started planning to meet
few people, I wanted to do it all today, first 3 sec were enough for
this realization that this is the PERFECT day. I realized many things
in that 3 sec, my mind was working with the speed of light, and look
at that I woke up without alarm, and I don't feel presence of that
shit, which I flush everyday, I felt as if that shit has stopped forming in-side me… and when I used this word "inside" I said it again…and then suddenly this word "inside" came "outside" of my mind and looked very important to me… it started echoing in my mind and then I realized it was continuously echoing in mind as if my mind is some big empty room, a good place for echo, as if I am hollow and empty. And then I remember
"just one thing" that I can't remember anything. Who was just talking
about some pending jobs, was it me who wanted to meet anybody, but
wait a sec, why can't I remember anybody, I hardly remembered anybody
now. Surely I had some faint picture in my mind, I felt as if I was
always like this and I was always this energetic and what I dreamed
was big journey but now I knew it was some dream which I am
forgetting, characters, players, place…all kind of mixed emotions
painful joyful, ohh it was all dream and now I actually want to
forget that dream as this reality seems to be better then that dream
and I decided not to close my close eyes to dream again. [when reality
is better then dreams no body sleeps] And I realized I am in my old
home which looked strange at first shot when I opened my eyes, and I
can remember everything now, My memory was evaporating very very fast,
and my present is taking over my past ( dream), I just wanted to
remember few best things before I loose all my memory. Somehow I could
not figure out what world was expecting from me to do in that dream, It
was defiantly sweet dream and though I was hurt many times in the
dream but I don't see any injury now. I only remembered that I was
always scared to come out of that dreamy world, it was so gripping, but
it is this happiness which I truly wanted and I am getting it now, I wish
others should also wake up and see the reality. And now I remembered
nothing about that one long dream, it was just dream and when I woke
up I felt no pinch, I was light, I was hollow and empty, Now I
remembered everything, and I know that its my routine, I sleep, I wake
up I dream and now I know that I will again sleep and will dream…i
knew thats this is real and this is reality.....

getting ready for next journey (dream)

incomplete

Chain of events....
Tuesday, 4:45 pm, I checked the time and figured out that it will take 30 min to reach IISc, so i can be there by 5:30, till now everything was fine... then i realized i have to pull my cloths from washing machine, so i spent 5 min on that now time was 4:50, looked at my self in mirror before leaving and started towards IISc, ( didn't find any difference..i don;t know why we look at mirror at times... may be its just our habit). On the mid way to IISc, i was figuring out which route to take, i had two options one was via Makeri circle and another was via BEL road, in last min i diverted to BEL wala route, and everything was fine till i faced jamm, some 20 min gone in jam, surprisingly i was not irritated by jam, but when i get clear signal, i was flying like free bird. Bike was on moderate speed and everything was fine..till...one scooty with two girls on it...came right in front.. and screamed on top of their voice...now ...i could hear danger and i could see danger and i also sense.. but it was soon over in no time!!!... It was over in form of accident, and next min i was on road and so is my bike and their was absolutely no danger. It would have been worst as it was two way road and i fell on to right side, where the traffic was coming from opposite direction, and i fell right in the middle of road, that was one reason, i could not avoid accident. Now i just had accident with two females on it, and slowly slowly people started making circle around us, few came leaving their shops and few joined just for entertainment, few thought may be they should help, few joined as everybody was joining, few joined as they don't know what happened and they should know and few joined out of curiosity. Well now everybody was waiting for show to start, so i started it, i asked those girls what is this... now they realized from their past that this is war and one should scream, shout and should do all crazy things, as that is how they have seen others, so to start with attack was in language which is considered to be hi-fi in India..so it was some non stop English garbage, which no body in the crowd followed.. so people got more curious, and they started asking whose mistake was this, two people who saw the incident...said "ladkiyo ka". In the mean while one girl started accusing me, and blamed me for everything. I realized its famous blame game starting and will have no end, so i made use of mobile to call police. Since those girls were localite,, some aunti passed,. who started interrogating my studies and things as if she found me suitable for her daughters!!....somehow she wanted to know if i am engineer or not,, she had assumed that i am some engineer...I waited for traffic police and then left matter to them in mean while i took phone number of those people and let them disappear, i also noted their bike number, now as per traffic rules i should go and report the matter to RT Nagar traffic police, i realized my bike was badly hit and was not even moving...two people came for the help... we remove few bents .. now handle was looking okay.. also with few adjustment.. it was ready to start, i started and realized its not moving. so i assumed some problem with gear box.. it was not going beyond 1st gear. Some how reached police station...after some waiting,.. police person got very friendly ...actual reason i realized later...he wanted me to ask money from other people and so that he can have some share...that was little unacceptable to me but i didn;t resist...he called them from my phone couple of time.. reply was that we are lawyers...what the hell..anyways... i wanted to see how things would turn, after two hours of wait, and his constant calling to other party they turned up.....police reminded me about his plan... and asked me to behave as he asked me to.. he said u look soft to me.. but u have to talk to them aggressively.... he wanted me to increase my blood pressure...
anyway other party came... one man came to me.. and said come i want to talk to u outside the police station.. he was around 55 year old man, i was sure he is not looking for some more fight.. but then y outside police station... he said some ,, and come with us.. and we will get ur bike repair...but don;t talk to these police people...he made promise that he will get my bike repaired.. but his son was not liking his fathers idea and they also had culprit with them, they started blame game again... and son and father both were lawyers... and son started talking to me as if i am some bad crimanl who is just out from jail...i felt sorry for them. I sense birth of another argument.. to which i had to put pause... i told those people.. just because we met in accident doesn't mean that one party is bad and other is good... or visa versa.. or just because you are three in number , thus majority wins .. or just because driver was female.. we should have sympathy for her...i said lets stop the process of non stop blaming and treating others like shit.. father made promise to me that he will get my bike repaired... i will end story here.. they kept their promise but it was not easy to get things done... next day again same small hangama took place... and lot of discussion.. lucky my bike was not damaged badly as i thought.. so they had no problem in keeping their promise...
moral of the story...

1) don't play blame game after accident, as both think they are right,,, and no body listen to no body..
2) It does and matter if u r good person or bad person, you can always be involved in accident, and will get hurt. No point in calling other bad and self good.
3) If you are still in position (survived after accident) to fight after accident it only means that there was no accident and thus no point in fighting.

Senses and people

Senses and people

New world is coming up.. and people are looking far various ways to feed their sense..but as a result they are growing insensitive, they are feeding their sense with so many exotic things that they are just getting more and more insensitive about basic things around them. Birth of insensitiveness can be seen in smallest of their action. In fact it seems to me that whole world is nothing but is a game about feeding your senses.

lets talk more about senses...

Having food is basic necessity but having tasty food is not!!, having tasty food is desire to feed your senses. Now we are not satisfied with food we get, we actually want more in it, you will hardly see any place which will just provide you basic food, untill and unless its part of charity, restaurant runs because they feed your senses.

Silence is all around, but converting it into music is desire to feed senses. Silence can bring more peace or can be more pleasurable to you then any kind music. One can live whole life in silence, sound or music is just not necessary for existence. its just a desire to feed your sense.

eyes, we need to see when we walk or run or do things... otherwise.. its just not necessary, u can live life without watching movie or TV, ask any blind( from birth) what time he/she faces problem, while doing things, they can;t even think about feeding sense, infect they don;t regret that they can't see TV as they don;t even know what it is ,, as they never found it obstacle in their life... but they regret as they find it difficult while walking or doing things. That also they will realize only when somebody would tell them that we do the same job without any effort.

Using soap is required for basic cleaning, but having fragrance in it is like feeding senses. Perfumes, Deo...are to impress people who are so insensitive that they will probably not notice you without it. Whole fashion industry stands on this concept of feeding your senses.


Now we have so much of crime, poverty, stress around us that we are growing more insensitive, reading newspaper is like making your self more insensitive, we are insensitive about our parents , friend and their feeling, taking them for granted is so common that we don;t even realize it. Forget others we are ignorant about our own self, we see so many people around us that our sense of looking at our-selfs doesn't exist, we only see ourself in stupid mirrors. If India lost its freedom to Britishers it was because fact that we were not sensitives to our own people, we sensed pleasure in entertaining Britishers, and look what was result. We try to impress others over our own near and dear one.

Because we only sense what we don't have, and not what we have, as our eyes are meant to see outside world.. everything other then your own self, it just can't see within you. So is ears. and so is tongue..all our sense are to see something which is not you.. so feeding this sense takes you away from yourself. Use them but don;t try to please them.....

"Best way to feed your sense is not to feed anything." Only that way it will remain susceptible to senses ( or changes). Thats why people ( tasters) who decide what is "taste", hardly taste anything to feed their desire.

No harm in being insensitive its just that i would prefer to be insensitive to such insensitive people.

watch this...
http://www.msnbc.com/modules/yip05/ss.asp?nStartOn=1

this is reality...

window....

Ever imagined a house without window...!!
do it now then....
its your own house... u can have everything you want, u name it and it will be given to you, except window. Well its not strange, as lot of people live in such houses, it sounds weird, but people do live in such houses. But even in jail they make sure that window is provided. In fact for many prisoners , window is everything!!!!. same as for some software professional or some computer geek, windows is everything. Btw I am not even trying to compare prisoner and geek!!, but they are similar.
So why is window so important, its just a hole in wall, so is a door.
Door opens up, but for people while window is different in many ways, never try to use window as door or u will end up braking your hands or what not.. may be heart too :)....
So do you think, window is just a hole in wall?, well yeah may be ..its just a hole, most of the time and for most of the people, window is just a "hole", but to me its "Whole" and as a whole I see it as person. It opens up new dimension, you can't leave door open and sleep, but u can leave your windows open all the time, and still be free and in fact you prefer them open, you know through window only good things are allowed (not talking about mosquitoes). Window does not block your vision and allows your thought to flow, though door can take you physically into new reality, but we use it for passage for material only, it does not broaden your vision it blocks it. It has its own importance..but this blog is about window!!
Window is like person, you can sit next to it for hours, yet you may not feel bore, and to be frank sometimes u feel more bore sitting next to person. Window can make you think, make you laugh at times, can bring you a music from distance, can also bring silence, can just blow your worries with fresh gush of wind, can bring tiny drops of cold water to energies you, sometimes let you talk to tree which is living at the edge of your house, can sometime bring you flowers and leaf in all forms, feel like writing more.... ........ but....

Window to me is like interface between two different type of world which may not be miscible.

Power of Mystery

Journey... what is journey??.. dictionary says "The act of traveling from one place to another"
i guess dictionary can only give definition.. but can never define what it is!!..can never define what it means for you and me!!
This word alone can define whole of your life... now..each of such travel.. and our destination is the same.... but not the "journey" towards that destination...

lets come to the point... there can be various type of journey... but the best one is.. from known to unknown.. .. what are we saying.... am i not contradicting my previous statement,.. where i say.. end is fixed and now i am saying .. a best journey is one which is towards unknown... !!!!

well why do we watch any movie, cricket...or for that matter read any novel or play any games... or read for exams... we actually wish this journey of unknown... ..and known things never charm us ... thats is why concept of god is so interesting, but then it may be just concept... to be frank many people spent half of their life around this concept only.. this concept has been fuel for living for many souls....

and no body really knows...
i am going to prove this in my next line...

when u ask somebody do u believe in god? .... ( what a strange question.. really stupid)
and then u get equally stupid answer always...believe me when i saw always ( yes i do believe in god or i don;t believe in god)

now why it is so stupid!!.. let me ask you one question..

do u belive in ur father or ur mother, or sachin tendulkar, or abdul kalam...??
u will rather say.. no question of believing or not believing as i know these people... i know they exist...and we either know that person exist or does not exist.. what is this "believing"???

"i belive that sachin tendulkar exist!!"... how stupid!!..it would rather say "i know sachin tendulkar exist"...

and when u say u believe that sachin tendulkar exist.. then u r either stupid or u don't know him at all..

now when u say i believe in god... u are actually showing strength of your doubt on the existence of god!!...ha ha.....it only proves that how uncertain u r when u say something like this...

btw things would have been really boring if u knew god really exist!!.. so let the mystery be on... u still have many years left to figure that out!!..

i really find all unknown things interesting...it pulls me really hard...